Feeling a bit down tonight, really don't know why. I wish I could smoke a joint and relax. But that's not in the cards for me. I'm just really scared of failing again. I am putting everything I have into this new business, usually 15 hours a day, every day, and I still feel like it's not enough. I can't screw this up, because I have nothing left if I do. I despise the thought of going back to the food industry. I don't know how to do anything else. People tell me to use my "musical talent". That takes years and years, and at the end of that road there is really not a whole lot for the average person. I'm the average person in the music department.
I want to go out. I never go out. Even if I did, where would I go? Not to a bar. I don't have any friends anymore. Well, none that don't drink or do drugs. I am bored.
Hey Seamus - take pride in the fact that you are doing something many people only dream about and never see to fruition - you have you own business! Don't think about failing - be positive and say you know you will succeed. Positive thinking brings positive results.
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